Purple Rose

Other than a digital image, I have never receive, send, nor seen a real purple rose before. So there is no reason for me to think of a Purple Rose. But for some reason, my mind thinks of Purple Rose from time to time.

Sometimes the image of a Purple Rose is so strong in my mind that it is all that I'm thinking of. On rare occassion, the Purple Rose stuck to my mind so much so that I couldn't think of any other thing despite all effort to distract my mind. Power, Sex, Money, Temptation, Dreams, Ambition, nothing can get rid of this image. It is as if I'm a war orphan constantly haunted by the image of fire, ash and mutilated bodies. except the image haunting me is a potrait of a Purple Rose.

With it being annoying, naturally I had to break it down to small little pieces and find out why is this image apparent in my mind.
Purple rose = Purple + Rose
Purple = Colour of mystery
Rose = Flora; a flower usually used to symbolise love or a human connection

If those were my initial thoughts, then it is very likely that I'm subconciously drawn to anything that is related to a mysterious human connetion. A mysterious love perhaps. Mysterious Love.... Crush... Obsession... Infatuation... Those were the that strikes my mind when I think of the word 'Mysterious Love'.

Love...
Crush...
Obsession...
Infatuation...

These words mean little if an image of a person is absent. If I could only attach these emotions to a figure, a person, then perhaps I can finally solve the mysterious image of the Purple Rose. So, attach it to a person is what I did. I desperately went back at all the years I've lived. Starting from my career life to my uni life, on to my college life, even way back to my school days as my mind drifted to search for the girl whom I can attach these emotions to.

Remembering the past, I do remember an occurance when a girl mentioned that her favourite flower is purple rose. If I could just remember who that was. If I could, then perhaps I finally lift this curse out of my life. In spite of being a curse, I was rather hoping this turns out to be a blessing.

Purple Rose, If I could just remember who that was~~~~
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Happiness v1

[Welcome back guys. I know I haven't been active in the blogosphere lately. Worse, I don't even know if I'll stay active in the blogosphere. Anyways, there is this article I've drafted exactly a year ago which I would love to publish it someday. Perhaps today is the day.]

Happiness is a very subjective issue. From what I observed, there are 2 general method of being happy

Method no.1
1) You see something I want. This thing will be able to make me happy as long as i have it.
When i have it, it gives me a sense of achievement, a sense of satisfaction & happiness.
Most people find happiness through this way.
In short, in your current state, you want something better.

Method no.2
2) I come across a sad story, or an experience of others that is far worse than what I'm experiencing now. (eg:Homeless people). It made me rethink of the things i take for granted and it makes me appreciate stuff more.
Though finding happiness through this way is very uncommon, but I think this way is more powerful method than method1.
You'll be contented knowing that you are far better of as compared to other people.
In short, in your current situation, you realize that you are in a far better position compared to most people.

If we take a scale of a ruler
0----5----10
10 being the highest happiness gauge and 0 being the lowest happiness.

We are at 5. If we get to 10, it gives us a sense of achievement. We feel happy.
We are at 5. If we get to know that there are people who are in 0, it makes us content that we have more than enough.